Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Migräne

Well these last few weeks, many discussions have been had about my future and what I want to do with my life. It seems to be a common question at this age, and I think many assume that because I had my mind so made up about this exchange, I would just as clearly know what I want to do with my future. Unfortunately, that's just not the case! But I had a great conversation with my mom last weekend over Skype about it all. For one, it was just awesome to have a normal conversation and not just the update of how I've been, how all in Crested Butte's been, etc. I really realized how fundamental dinner table conversations are with my family and it made me miss the one's I have so frequently back home. (Not that I don't have great conversations over here, they're just different!) Anyways, we came to the solid conclusion that I have so many passions, and now so many connections all over the world that I can pursue any or many of the dreams I have. And that makes me feel a lot less stressed! Still, I continue to receive E-mails from colleges around the country and I worry a little bit about the decisions I'm going to have to make in the next year. One option of course is now going to college in Vienna. It offers everything I want and is a lot cheaper! But I'm a little hesitant about being SO far away for so long. And I have also discovered that living in Vienna sometimes doesn't agree with my body. In the winter, the sun doesn't shine too often, and I find myself craving some good ole' vitamin D. The sun came out for about 20 minutes on Monday and I walked out on the balcony and cherished every minute of it! This constant grey and dark winter has been a bit rough sometimes... Also, I get migraines way more frequently over here. At first I thought it could have been from change of diet and just being really tired a lot. But all the Vienese locals swear that it's the weather. At first I thought this idea was rediculous. Why would clouds or a sudden change from cold to warm weather give me headaches? But it proves true every time snow turns to rain or the famous Vienese wind blows in some clouds, I get dabilitating migraines. Last Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday I was stuck in bed with a nasty headache. After finally feeling better for a while, I woke up again Tuesday morning unable to walk because I was so dizzy. That has not happened to me in a long time. I'm also pretty used to my headaches going away in a couple of hours. But these last for days. I am only now getting over my latest. So I've decided that pretty much rules Vienna out for college. I love this city and I'm so blessed to have a whole year in it, but those headaches are not worth a cheaper education!
So moving forward, here's a quick update of what's been going on the past few days...
School has been great! I feel like I belong, and I have such a great time making friendships tighter every day! I did get my first Spanish test back on Monday, only to see that I pretty much bombed it. I got a D. I'm pretty used to doing well in school, and that was a pretty embarrassing and sad few hours for me. But oh well! I can always try harder next time! Besides, I have learned a whole new language in the past 5 months, no wonder I forgot a little of the other!
I've had some great Skype sessions lately! I got to speak with my lovely sister and we had a really great conversation. It's hard when she cries and it hurts that I can't jump through the screen and give her a hug! But for now all I can do is give her some sisterly advice and make her laugh! I also had a GREAT time talking with my mom, just the way we used to talk. Usually Skype conversations are a little stressful and sad, but I totally forgot about the computer screen standing in my way, and enjoyed the time spent with my mom.
Shortly after that conversation, my host parents left to go to a ball! Vienna is famous for it's balls and many of them were this last week in January. I took a few pictures of my parents together, and it was so cool! Niki had a 100 year old pocket watch and Babsi was decked out in beautiful jewelry. They looked like royalty!
Yesterday I woke up with an awful headache, feeling even worse because I knew I had to give a presentation at my local Rotary club that evening. This has been scheduled since October, and there was no way I could re-schedule. So I slept most of the day, and finally took one of my shots to make the headache go away. Unfortunately, these shots usually make me feel ill for a while before making the headache go away. I must have put this shot in the perfect spot in my leg because I became very ill IMEDIATELY and it hurt and bled way more than it usually does. So I layed back down in bed, hoping it would all pass by 7:00 for my presentation. I definitely wasn't 100% but I managed to get myself there and give a great presentation about Crested Butte to the whole club. Babsi was there for encouragement and support, and I held it together the whole night. All the Rotarians were really interested and amused the entire time. That always makes me happy because I love braggin about where I come from! One man has actually been on a ski vacation to Crested Butte, which is absolutely INCREDIBLE! No one over here knows where CB, is, let alone Colorado. Many people in Colorado don't even know where Crested Butte is! So I got invited to his house for dinner one evening to look at pictures from the Butte and play guitar with him! Another who had been skiing once in British Colombia (Candada), said he loved the Western snow and asked me to email him the info about Crested Butte Mountain Resort as he plans to take a trip there in the future! So I did some solid advertising for Crested Butte and hopefully made them see that little slice of paradise through the same adoring eyes I have! They were also very impressed with my German, which makes me feel proud. One man even called me fluent... Which I honestly know can not happen in only one year of studying German, but I have come pretty far, and I am proud! And that's okay! Alright, that's pretty much it... Oh! And I recieve my final return date today. That kind of snapped me back into reality as I realized I actually have to get on that plane on June 24th. It is no longer a hypothetical flight. It is a real departure with Tyrolean Airlines at 10:30 am. I actually have to say goodbye to all the wonderful people and places I've come to know. It hit me like a semi barreling down the highway. But I sure am going to make the best of these next 21 weeks and not take a single moment for granted or live with any regrets. I can't wait!
Off to bed for now! I hope everyone has a wonderful day/night where ever you are in the world! Thanks for your constant support!

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